Baby's Feelings of Lust and Love Toward Johnny

Baby has come into Johnny's cabin in order to seduce him sexually. She tells him about her feelings.

* She feels sorry about the way her father treated him.

* She feels scared of never feeling again the way she feels when she's with him.

She does not name the desperate feelings she experiences when she's with him -- but those unnamed feelings are lust and love.

She recognizes that those two feelings of hers are not reciprocated by Johnny. He has not said or done anything to indicate that he feels lust or love toward her. Because her own feelings are not reciprocated, she is scared also that her expression of those feelings to Johnny will lead to her own humiliation. Johnny will be compelled to tell Baby that he does not feel lust and love toward him, and she will have to walk out of the room knowing that painful fact.

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Earlier that day, Baby had talked with Penny about feelings. Baby had said she felt scared about forgetting dance moves during her performance at the Sheldrake Hotel, while Penny had wanted to talk about her own feelings of lust, love and fear.

Baby Houseman
I'm afraid I'm gonna forget to spike, get dizzy and fall on my face. No. Don't look at my feet, keep my head up, my eyes open. Tension in my arms, my frame locked, seat pulled up.

Penny Johnson
Thanks, Baby. Look, I just want you to know that I don't sleep around, whatever Robbie might have told you. And I thought that he loved me. I thought it was something special. Anyway, I just wanted you to know that.

Baby Houseman
So, how does it look?

Penny Johnson
I'm scared. I'm so scared, Baby.

Baby Houseman
Don't worry. You'll be fine.

Baby was preoccupied with her own feelings of lust, love and fear.

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All day, among many strong emotions, Baby felt lust toward Johnny. She felt compelled to become sexual with him. My previous post titled Baby intended to seduce Johnny when they returned from the Sheldrake concluded as follows:

* ... her [Baby's] breasts were bare twice while she was in the car's back seat that night.

* When the car arrives at Penny's cabin, Baby continues to sit in the car while Johnny gets out to go visit Penny briefly. Baby is afraid that the situation might develop is such a way that she does not get back into the car -- that she will be expected to simply walk back to her hotel room. Baby wants to make sure that she will be in the car after Johnny gets back into the car.

* Baby remains sitting in the car, primping her face in the rear-view mirror. Johnny walks around the car's front and opens her passenger door, so she does get out of the car after all.

* Johnny takes both her hands into both his own hands for a moment. He seems to be expressing his idea that now he and she are departing from each other. He makes no motion to kiss her goodbye. Rather, he simply holds her hands for a moment as his platonic method of communicating his goodbye. Baby is not supposed to go into an employee's cabin.

* Then Johnny turns away from Baby before Billy approaches. Billy's announcement that Penny is suffering some problem gives Baby an unexpected reason to stay with Johnny by going along with him to Penny's cabin.

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Penny's crisis delays Baby's plan to seduce Johnny immediately after they return from the Sheldrake to Kellerman's. Although she did arouse him by exposing her bare breasts, his arousal was dissipated by the time Dr. Jake Houseman finished treating Penny.

Afterwards, Jake forbade Baby from seeing Johnny again.

After Jake went back to bed, however, Baby, still wearing the same white, embroidered peasant blouse, went to Johnny's cabin and accomplished her plan to seduce him.

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Baby intended that after the Sheldrake performance she would become sexual with Johnny. She bared her breasts on the ride to the Sheldrake and again on the ride back to Kellerman's. However, Johnny did not respond to her hint. He did not stop the car in a secluded location and engage her sexually.

* He did not say, "I want to show you a place that's beautiful at night".

* He did not say, "Let me stop so that we can talk some more about the dance."

He just kept driving. He drove to the vicinity of Penny's cabin and got out of the car to go see Penny. Baby remained sitting in the car, but Johnny walked around to the passenger door and indicated to Baby that they should part from each other. He would go to Penny's cabin, and Baby was supposed to go back to her hotel room.

At that moment, Johnny and Baby's parting was interrupted by Billy's report that Penny was suffering some crisis.

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What would Baby have done if Billy had not interrupted?

* She might have abandoned her seduction effort and gone back to her hotel room.

* She might have continued her seduction effort and tried to persuade Johnny to take her to his cabin.

I think Baby would have told Johnny she wanted to avoid running into her parents or sister that evening. She did not want to go back to her hotel room until after they all were asleep. Baby would have given Johnny that reason to invite her into his cabin for a while.


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By the time Baby invited herself into Johnny's cabin, she was troubled by the following feelings:

* Disappointment that Johnny had not made any sexual moves toward her.

* Frustration that her baring of her breasts apparently had not excited Johnny.

* Worry that Penny was sick because of her abortion.

* Embarrassment her father had realized she had lied to him about the $250.

* Fear because she was disobeying her father's order to stay away from the dancers.

* Sorrow because her father had treated Johnny rudely.

Now that she has come into Johnny's cabin and engaged him in conversation, however, she learns that he is troubled by his own emotions. Johnny tells her that he feels that people treat him like he is nothing because he really he is nothing. He fears he might fall suddenly back into poverty, where he has to eat Jujubes to keep alive. He feels he cannot do anything to make the world better.

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Johnny's confession about his own feelings of inferiority and insecurity encourages Baby. Until Johnny's confession, Baby had felt he was far too superior to deign to involve himself romantically with her. Johnny's confession of his own vulnerability suddenly caused Baby to feel that Johnny was attainable.

Suddenly, Baby's feeling of love overwhelmed all her other feelings. Her feeling of love compelled her to take the risk of expressing her feelings of lust and love toward him. She herself made the next seductive move -- she asked him to dance with her. She took the risk of being rejected.

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